Seems like we're really going the wrong way.
You would never shout at me in the public.
You would always try to reduce as much quarrel as you can.
You would never vent your anger on me anyhow.
You would try to give in to me no matter what.
You would never say those harsh things to me.
Now, it's the first time you did it ...
Am I really that irritating to you ? Am I really going too overboard ?
Yes, I'm not your girlfriend, you're not my boyfriend.
You know I like you, then why would you want to give me some hope still ?
Maybe, it doesn't mean anything to you also.
But how can I say it, so that you know it actually means alot to me.
Everything you do, everything you think, everything you feel.
I know you can't do anything about this, because it's my own feelings.
But can't you just think for me, as a friend.
Do you know that everything you say, is really hurting to me.
I can't say anything, I can't do anything.
I tried not to quarrel with you everytime, but it seems like I'm still doing it.
Why am I always in the wrong ? Why am I always saying the wrong things, doing the wrong things ...
You tell me.
What can I do or say, so that you will be happy ? And things will be right.
Without you thinking that I'm forcing myself.
I said I can do whatever you want, I will try for your sake.
But, you just don't believe me.
I'm not controlling your life, I'm not changing you.
I'm just afraid that I will lose you, as a close friend. I'm really afraid, no matter how much you assure me I won't.
I know you would say, nothing much you can do since I think about it this way.
But hey, I also don't want to think this way. When I'm alone, everything just come to my mind. I try to focuse on other things more, but after that, everything come back to me again.
So, what can I do ? Seriously, I don't know how people control themselves from thinking. I'm too weak, like you say. I can't control or hide my emotions, my feelings well.

I really want those times back when we're really happy, without quarrelling everytime we meet. Even though sometimes I do something you don't like, we would never end up quarrelling. Either it's you who is changing, or I'm the one who's changing. I just can't stop thinking. Everything about you.
I just like you alot alot alot. That's all.
Like till I do everything that seems like I'm controlling your life.
Till you don't like the way I am now ...
Whatever I do, it's like an eyesore to you.
I miss the way you are last time, I miss the times where life only revolves around us three. It's all goneee.
I know you wouldn't care much about what I'm writing ...
But I just want to.